So there have been a lot of things that have changed in my life lately. But with the help of my oh so strange therapist I have began to look at things a little differently. Since I am looking at things and life a bit differently there have been some changes in my life.
First and foremost. I am not putting up with anyone's shit. If you are about drama or you are starting drama I will indeed block you on facebook and in real life as well. I don't care if you are family or a friend I have known since before puberty. That is it, I am done. I don't want any part of it anymore. I won't deal with it, I won't in anyway put up with it. I have reached my breaking point. I hate drama, and if that is all you are going to do is create drama I really don't want anything to do with you anymore. My life is slowly but surely getting quiet.
See, I am not a people person at all. Because in general most people are stupid. So I am what others call a homebody or a "loner" and I have absolutely no intention of changing that. I enjoy sitting by myself, I enjoy being around no one but myself. Because I enjoy my own company and there are some people in this world that I don't even think enjoy their own company but at least I can say that, can you? My therapist doesn't think that this is a good quality to have. She has told me I have "severe social issues" among many other things. But regardless of what she says, I am not going to change this. Maybe I am just stubborn who knows.
I am only about making my family and myself happy. And by my family, I mean my children and my man and myself. Because another thing I have learned lately is that if I am not happy, I can't make anyone else happy. So I have been working on that as well as cutting out the constant drama in my life. And I will get there one day and I do not care who does and doesn't like what I do. It is my life and the only person in this world I need to please is myself.
I know that saying things and actually doing them are two completely different things. Because usually I don't have the motivation. But that is slowly changing as I am changing. One day at a time is all I can do right now. Actually I prefer to take things one minute at a time these days. At least when I do that, then I won't feel as disappointed when I don't reach my goal or said task.
It is just the beginning and it will get better, It has to right?