Today's Prompt is "Will You Take Charge" to view today's blog host you can click here.
So today, I am a little behind. Normally I would have posted last night, but just couldn't. So I opened up Facebook to view the topic. And immediately when I read, "Will You Take Charge?" My mind went completely dirty LOL. Because yes that is the kinda freak I am! I thought "Why yes, yes I will take charge"
..But then figured I probably shouldn't post that kind of naughty blog, HAHA! So I will take it a different route and keep it "PG" :-P
So for the longest time (up until recently even) I have had some severe co-dependency issues. I am not sure why, that is still being sorted. But I haven't been one to take charge, I have been the passenger so to speak and that has ended. Recently I have had some very drastic things happen in my life. Blood disorders and surgeries and possible cancer. It has all thrown me for a loop, all the while I have not told my children anything, they just know that mommy is sick. Anyways, I have sat back and let others try to "run" my life and I have only said things here and there not really doing anything about it (i.e. someone trying to tell me how to raise my kids, what I should and shouldn't be doing etc..) and I have just sat back and let it all slide. I'm not going to blame it on my medical problems, because that just isn't true. Mostly, I was just lazy and had this "I don't give a flying f*ck attitude."
But that has changed. I have reached this "Im fed up" point and I am not taking any crap from anyone about anything. If I don't like it, I say so. If something needs changed in my life, I do my best to change it right then and there (depending on what it is..) and that is just it. It's my life and I will be damned if I am going to let anyone else try to run it or try to control what I do and don't do. So here is what I am doing:
~Moving. As soon as I have enough money saved up, I am getting out of this neighborhood and moving up to bigger and better things then the hood.
~Making a budget plan. May not sound like a big thing to anyone else, but I want to keep track of funds and making sure money is going where it NEEDS to go and not where I WANT it to go.
~Going back to school. I have done a lot of soul searching and I have decided to pursue my true passions in life (a later blog..) and I am hoping it will get me somewhere in life.
..and that is it so far. It's still a work in progress, but I will keep ya'll posted.
But I decided about this time last week, that it is my life and I haven't been in charge. But it's my time to get up and take charge of my life, because I am the only one who can do it!
Until tomorrow my friends!!
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