I know in one of my first blogs I talked a little bit about high school for me. But what I haven't talked about was how life changing it really was for me. I think everyone says that high school is when you "learn" who you are and etc.. But high school wasn't really a walk in the park for me by far.
I did a lot of experimenting in high school, and no I don't mean with drugs (ok, those too lol) But I never really did feel like I fit in. I was the girl with coal black hair down to my ass, wearing leather pants and harley shirts. Or I would wear anything that had to do with rock n roll because I was really into some rock n roll back in high school. I was also the stoner, who walked into class completely baked, and I didn't care. I never cared about anything, and I had the worst attitude in the world. I spent most of my days in suspension or being suspended because I was just plain crazy back then... But something happened when I was 15 that changed everything..
A week after my 9th grade graduation, I found out I was pregnant. Yeah, part of me was shocked because I never thought I would be "that girl" who got pregnant in high school. But at the same time I was on birth control so I was completely terrified. I was scared and worried and I thought for sure my mother would kill me LOL.. But I survived.
I did graduate my 9th grade, and shortly after that we moved to Tennessee to take care of my sick grandfather. I remember going to the local high school to enroll, and was I in for a shocker. When my mother and I spoke to the principal, we were then informed that I couldn't enroll at all. The principal didn't want me in the high school because I was a "bad influence" to my fellow peers and I needed to enroll into the alternative school that was over 2 hours away in Nashville. And at the time, travelling 4 hours a day just wasn't an option. So I couldn't finish high school there. I instead, opened my own business at the age of 15. I started a cleaning business.
I did cleaning for a company called "Waste Management" and cleaned the local office, and that is how I paid rent every month. And I worked that job all the way to the day (literally) that I gave birth to my daughter. Four months after I gave birth, I moved back to Nebraska.
My daughter's father and I separated shortly afterwards. I was enrolled full time at the local alternative high school. That high school for teen moms and all the misfit kids, Im sure you know the high school. And I was attending high school full time and working full time at the Subway down the street from the school. Being 16 with a child, in school and working was just too much for me.
I wanted to attend school, but getting knocked up at a young age didn't help matters. I was a mother and my childs needs always came before mine. So I dropped out of high school and started working full time. I later on did get my GED, but that wasn't for years later.
High school was everything to me. I went from being a full time "Barney Bad Ass" to being a full time mommy and part time bad ass LOL Having my daughter when I did, completely changed my life.
It made me realize that there was a lot more to life then drugs and rock n roll and changed me for the better..
I did manage to meet some of my best friends in high school. Quite a few of which I am still friends with to this day. And some days I really do miss being that careless teenager. But I am glad that I had my daughter when I did, she really was the miracle I needed to have at that point in my life...
Until next time my friends... :)