I get up at 7am every single day. I get up. Get my 2 kids dressed, fed and ready for school. Drop them off at 830am and then I come home and make breakfast for my tiny human.
Then I spend from 9-3ish doing the mom thing. Ya know what that is? Cooking, cleaning, laundry, running errands, more cleaning and more laundry, blah blah I could go on and on and on..
3:55pm gets here and it's time to pick the mini me's up from school. Then I get home and do more laundry and more cleaning and more errand running. Yes, I have a nice 3 bedroom house, full attic, full basement that needs tending too and I am the only one who does any of it. If you have kids, you know cleaning house is like shoveling snow while it's still snowing! My 1 year old does a great job of destroying what I clean up.
Unless it pertains to the house or the kids, I don't leave. And when I say I don't leave, I mean I literally do not leave my house. Don't see another adult, human being ever. I sit by myself all day long with a 1 year old daughter to talk to. You know how lonely that gets after awhile?
Don't get me wrong, my kids drive me INSANE but I love them to death and I do everything for them. But I don't see adults, ever. And it gets lonely to never have an adult conversation. The only adult time I have is the computer. And usually on a daily basis I am SO busy doing for the kids, and cooking cleaning etc, I don't have time to just sit on the computer and do nothing. Between the house, kids and my health problems I am just plain to tired at the end of the day.
And even though I am tired as hell I still don't sleep. On average I sleep about 3-4 hours a night, on a good night I will get 6 hours but that hasn't happened in a very long time. So since Im never around adults, 90% of my day I spend in my head. Between my OCD, Generalized anxiety, my health problems I am alone..
So I blog. I blog because it keeps me SANE right now, and I don't care who or if anyone reads or what anyone thinks while reading them. But I have to or I might go crazy, but since I am already crazy, I don't know what will happen... LOL
I need friends, that are in my area to come and visit every now and then. Or something has got to give. Something has to change before I go completely batty and end up an old single lady with 30 cats!
Im going insaneeeeeeeeee!