Death is something that we ALL go through. Whether it's been family, a friend or whoever. You have experienced death and all her friends.
Last night, I learned that someone really close to me passed away. He was my very first love! When him and I decided years ago that we couldn't be together, we were the best of friends. He was my BEST friend. The only person I could ever count on. It wouldn't matter what it was, I could drunk dial him at 3am just to talk to him. He was the love of my life and the best friend anyone could ask for.
Last night (3/2/12) he was driving home from work and was T-boned by a drunk driver that killed him instantly. Instantly I had HATE for those who drink and drive. But I can't be a complete hypocrite, because I myself have been in trouble for drinking and driving, the only difference is that I learned my lesson the FIRST time it happened... (8 years ago) and it hasn't EVER happened since. I have hate, frustration and just plain anger. His life was taken because someone else was SELFISH enough to do such a thing.
I miss my best friend. I miss him with all of my being, and there is nothing I can do about it. All I can do is have pure hate, anger, and sadness for what has happened. And I can't help but wonder..
Was it just his time? Was it Karma? Was it just his time? Death and all her friends... I wouldn't wish death upon my worst enemy... Death and all her friends...
Im sooo sad, and I am having a lot of problems dealing right now. He was a great man. He was a great man with a great and beautiful woman and 3 very young children. He was also younger then me... How do you deal with something like that?
It's like AA... Taking things one day at a time? Well... for tonight, I just don't wanna deal...